It has been quite a few days since I have written…
Frankly, this is because the last few days have been ones of great internal shifts for me.
I didn’t want to write anything that sounded “negative” or “sad”…
and so I did not write.
However, while we are in this human form, there will be times in our lives when “negativity” or “sadness” appears.
It is part of the human experience and it is up to us how we handle it.
Friday the 13th came and went…
and lol yes, I attracted a lot of Goddess energy and actually enJOYed the day very much. 😉 ♥ 😀
A “negative” person had insisted (the day before) that she was going to come to where I was working on this day but lol I guess the positive vibes were high because that person decided not to show up!
Maybe Friday the 13th “negative belief” energies “got her”… lol who knows? ;p
She just didn’t show and frankly, she was not missed. I was busy and didn’t even think of her insisting that she will be there until after the fact and the day had ended without her showing up.
All in all, it was a wonderful day! 😉 ♥ 😀
Then Saturday came and there was a bit of chaos while this person was at the store that I was working at.
Another person has been noted as saying that this person was definitely “having a bad day” so I was not the only one who observed this. This person has a LOT of bad days though so it seems to be a TREND.
It is their path though and I do not judge.
It just IS what it IS.
What has really gotten me thinking though is the realization that I have been absorbing negative energy from this person without even realizing it AT FIRST.
Now those last couple of words are the “key” here: “AT FIRST”…
because when I take a long hard look at this, I really do think that
at some level I was aware that this was taking place…
But why? WHY allow this to happen?
(Ahhh those lessons…)
Being empathic and having worked extensively with energy, I am usually well aware of what is happening.
However, in this case scenario, I really was acting like I was in a “fog”.
I could feel that I was deflecting negative energy (acting as a “buffer” if you will) whenever this person was around.
In fact, I was even aware that I was absorbing some of it because there would be times where I would “catch myself” sending loving, healing energy to this person.
(I was doing this “automatically” because I am a healer and my first instincts were to want to help.)
It wasn’t until I actually heard this person ANGRILY SCREAMING at the top of her lungs at her kid that I started to open my eyes.
This person claims to be “Spiritual”… how “Spiritual” is that?
Again, not judging but the question does have merit.
Eyes open, seeing the person for what they really are… I continued to send loving, healing energy.
From what I was seeing,
they needed it more than ever!
However, if the person you are sending loving, healing energy to IS NOT OPEN to receive it then it won’t help them no matter how hard you try.
AND IF the person is an energy vamp, then they will just SUCK YOU DRY!
Now don’t get me wrong…
I am NOT blaming or accusing anyone of being an “energy vamp” but this phenomena DOES occur.
There are also people who are “suck energy” from you without even realizing that they do so. People who are stressed and/or used to the “negative attention” that “drama” in their lives bring them, usually fall into this category. They crave attention and well if “negative attention” or “drama” is the only way that they will get it, then they will go after that…. causing disturbances, making “mountains out of molehills” and so on…
I’m sure you all have come across this type at one time or another.
But getting back to the point I was trying to make earlier…
WHY would I allow this to happen?
Well, I think “timing” had a bit to do with it.
September holds the day which is the anniversary of my mom’s death
so I was a bit “sad” to begin with.
I was not in a “higher vibrational” state-of-mind and well “like” attracts “like” so I drew to me the attentions of someone with “lower’ and “negative” energies.
I also think “jealousy” (which is another “lower vibration”) played another part in this
because as I became happier in what I was doing, there were a couple of people (including the above-mentioned) who seemed to really despise this.
Interesting how “petty” some people can be but what is even more interesting is what my response to it was.
I went into a “people pleasing” type mode and was “polite” to the one being “negative”.
In an attempt to “fit in”
[which frankly is absurd because I truly will never “fit in” with this type of “negative” person nor would I really want to],
I put up with “negativity” in many forms (including their lying and their “inappropriate touching” whereby they actually took their finger and “poked” me in the stomach while making a derogatory remark!)
That in itself is a whoooole other story! :S
Anyways, the whole scenario has me looking at my response to it all
and I am seeing places where I need to change.
People will treat you the way you show them it is okay to treat you.
Negative or not, this person felt it was “okay” to spew their “negative” and often “drama-filled” energy my way,
even to the point of “projection”
and frankly, whether consciously or unconsciously, I allowed this….
I am still working on fully understanding WHY…
As I truly thought my “people-pleasing” days ended long ago…
But this whole scenario has me questioning THAT along with other issues that transpired.
I allowed it… I see that now
and it is up to me to make the necessary changes to ensure that I do NOT allow this again.
It is really UP TO ME!
Looks like THIS “Happy Hippie” definitely has some more INNER WORK to DO!
Wishing you PEACE and LOVE ♥ 😀